I embarked on my journey to Utsav, Panchgani with great excitement, as the focus of the event was initially on creativity, something that has always been close to my heart. As someone who has been applying theater and arts practices to reconciliation work since I was a teenager, I was thrilled to have the opportunity to work specifically on this aspect of the conference. However, the focus of the event later shifted to finding IofC's path forward in the world, which led me to realize that I always end up in this position, trying to find my own path within the context of my family's legacy in IofC.
Despite this change in focus, I arrived at the conference with an open mind and a curiosity about why and how IofC is still so active in Asia. The event got off to a wonderful and intense start, and I found myself once again in the middle of wanting to give my point of view and perspective from the fourth generation my perspective of the once young person who never got the reins, still thinking I deserve it and finally realizing another generation has passed and I'm not the young person anymore and I don't even have the reins to hand over.
Eventually, I reached my limit and became overwhelmed and uninspired. At this point, I remembered my goal for the conference: to find peace with myself, my history, and to always come back to what is my strength. I can do many things in IofC, but I needed to focus on my true strengths and passions, the things that give me serenity and energy